Domino effect

I've never imagined my life could change so much, and so rapidly.

These past few weeks seemed to be a domino effect.

Frightening at first, but when every thing finishes falling, it makes a beautiful bigger picture.

And New York City is what started everything.

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New York was nothing like I thought it would be.

It was crowded yes, but never as chaotic and it seemed.

Every street is different, but they all have the same feel, if that makes sense.

One of the countless things I loved about NY, is that everyone is so focused, and determined.

They are so focused on themselves, and that sounds bad, but I don't mean it that way.

For me, it made me think, what do I need to be focusing on?

What should I be so determined about?

I cannot explain how I felt when I first saw you.

Maybe I shouldn't try.

Because it's one of the most sacred, raw, and emotional moments I've ever been through.

And even if I could find the words to describe what I felt, I don't feel like they would do it justice.

Being there, though. Felt right.

I was in one of the most amazing cities in the world, and I was there with my best friend.

I soon learned how you went about your days, and met the people in your every day life.

It made me happy to see that you've made a life out there.

I didn't expect anything less from you, but seeing it in person was breathtaking.

For the past few months, I felt you move away from me.
In your heart, and in your mind.
This trip showed me where they were.
They are in your dreams, in your goals, in your passion, in your work.
They are in your music. 
You are so focused, so one-track minded with what you want.
If I didn't find it so brilliant and admirable, I'd find it irritating.
You have made me realize, that in order to get what you want in life, you have to be obsessed. Completely. You have to emerge yourself in it totally.
And that's what you have done. 
People will see your passion, and dedication- and you will get the things you want out of life. 

This trip made me realize how much I am going to miss you over the passing months.

But being apart will give us time to figure out who we are.
We'll have new stories to tell, new scars to show, and new songs to hum to one another.
And it will teach me how to rely on myself rather than on you.
Which will be interesting after being so dependent on you for so long.

It's only been a week and everything already seems so different, and so strange.